For several years I have been interested in taking everyday forms—grocery lists, posters, tests—and making stories out of them. In part, the inspiration for “The Ghost of Amy Winehouse” came from helping a student study for and take job aptitude tests for entry-level service industry jobs. The questions were absurd and seemed deeply unrelated to the work. I wondered about the people who wrote these tests and who, if anyone, reviewed them.
I am not someone who makes outlines. I have to muddle my way through. Over the course of a few drafts, the point of view, the format of the test, and the way the characters related to each other changed. Amid all these changes, the ghost was always the ghost of Amy Winehouse. I can’t put my finger on why—it just seemed right.
I wanted the structure of this story to mirror the claustrophobia I had felt while working as a server. In public-facing jobs, you always have to be “on”—no matter what is happening around you. Sometimes I look back on the years I spent working in restaurants and am amazed I held out for so long. Of all the fields I have worked in—publishing, teaching, and development—customer service was the most challenging. However, I didn’t want to solely focus on the misery and hardship of the characters in this story. I wanted to include moments of humour and tenderness because when I was a server my life was just as complex as it is now—with just as many joys and heartbreaks. The only difference is now when I tell people what I do for work they don’t ask me when I’ll get “a real job.”
CLARA OTTO is a queer writer living on the unceded traditional territories of the xʷməθkʷəy̓əm (Musqueam), Sḵwx̱wú7mesh (Squamish), and səlilwətaɬ (Tsleil-Waututh) Nations. She is an MFA candidate at the University of British Columbia. Her work has been published in The Ex-Puritan, just femme and dandy, and elsewhere. When not writing, you can find her scouring thrift stores for pottery and drinking bubble tea. Find her on Twitter or Instagram at @claraotto411.