Always with You by Robert Maynor
Document I: Letter from S. Bethany Dear Father Sister, Mother, Lover who art in Heaven Home, Hell, Hotel, Hospital When you find this, please: Load me like a bullet in the chamber of your gun. Lay me by your…
Document I: Letter from S. Bethany Dear Father Sister, Mother, Lover who art in Heaven Home, Hell, Hotel, Hospital When you find this, please: Load me like a bullet in the chamber of your gun. Lay me by your…
We wanted to feed the bees. We wanted this privilege every year, but only when we were blanketed safely in the hills. We wanted something small and threatening to need us, so we could decide whether it deserved our…
You’re looking through the hole in your father’s shoulder like it’s a spyglass. Or a kaleidoscope. Except, it isn’t either of those things. It’s a long, dark tunnel, and the other side isn’t magnified or broken into crystal fragments.…
Content Warnings—mental illness, suicidal ideation Close to midnight, I approach the Michigan-Ohio border, headlights flashing around me like starry pinpricks in the vast, dark tunnel along southbound I-75. It’s November 2015—a cold, clear-heaven night—and I’m clocking ninety miles per…
Everyone is coughing behind a mask. The papers warn that the only way to avoid the sweeping sickness is to limit contact, but kids are still playing together in the streets because October in Cloquet, Minnesota is rarely this…
The plane lands in the one hour of tilted midday light that January sees daily. I step down onto the icy runway, and my new principal throws my bag into the bed of a red pickup. I climb in…
I carry her in my fingertips when I’m far from home. Feeling the heat of her skin if I press thumb and index finger together hard enough. I can trick myself into her softness if I brush my thumb…
1. Ambigram In isolation, I mark time by the movement of sunlight across my walls and floors. I awake each morning to the desert sun blazing through the east-facing back door. The sun conspires with the automatic pool cleaner…
At dusk the light goes diffuse, like slow motion, like simple. The backyard trees are velvet; cirrus swift brushstrokes make the sky seem safe. The railroad rattling through the front yard slows too, whistle filtered through the gloaming until…
Inspired by Invisible Cities by Italo Calvino—a story of my life Perhaps the farmland becomes industrial yards with barbed wire fences, and then the barbed wire fences become concrete retaining walls covered in graffiti, and you are there.…
In lieu of an author’s note, we’ve gathered some of Hart L’Ecuyer’s thoughts on this piece and its inspiration. —CRAFT
In an entry on his blog in 2019, Hart L’Ecuyer announced that he’d been inspired by a MasterClass seminar with Billy Collins to write poetry about his own life for a change—instead of the “feudal Japanese lords and dead presidents and mid-century Russian socialites” that had occupied him most recently. “Y’all damn well better like this stuff when it’s done,” he wrote, “because it sure is tough to look in the mirror and not run away sometimes.”
In his flash creative nonfiction piece “Cities and Desire,” L’Ecuyer marries the tough realism of looking in the mirror with the surrealism of so much of his poetry. He credits the Italian surrealist Italo Calvino as the model for his essay, which is epigraphed: “inspired by Invisible Cities by Italo Calvino—a story of my life.” “This small nonfiction piece is presented in the style of Italo Calvino’s Invisible Cities,” he shared with us. “It tells of a return home from a brief vacation—and a heroin relapse. In a way it tells the story of multiple such relapses, many of which took a similar shape. I was a heroin addict for about two years before doctors found a sinus tumor between my right eye and my brain. I finally stopped, but the damage was done. In my nonfiction I explore that time in my life as part of the healing process.”
A proud St. Louis native and committed surrealist, HART L’ECUYER has attended Loyola University Chicago, St. Louis University, Webster University, New York University, and the University of Missouri—St. Louis. He has published poems in over two dozen literary magazines, including PARAGRAPHITI, Blue Lyra Review, Futures Trading, Blue River Review, The Bitchin’ Kitsch, Former People, Bad Jacket, The Conglomerate, Blue Moon, Mannequin Haus, and Subterranean Blue Poetry. He has performed all over St. Louis, as well as at bookstores and bars in Chicago, Kansas City, New York, Berlin, and Paris. His eighth poetry collection, Broadcast Domino Plague, was recently published by Spartan Press.