Canines by Jona Whipple
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She says go like this and bares her teeth at me, lips pulled back. All the other girls lean in to see inside my mouth, too close. I smell the leather of their shoes, but I don’t flinch. Jagged,…
She says go like this and bares her teeth at me, lips pulled back. All the other girls lean in to see inside my mouth, too close. I smell the leather of their shoes, but I don’t flinch. Jagged,…
The first thing they had to do was name us, as if we were rescues or strays. As if they would need a way to gossip about us, to get our attention. We mostly did not like our new…
Number one had cerulean blue eyes and haloed heat as we danced at Sadie Hawkins in our matching flannel shirts and he wandered night stairs and stars almost as stoned as his mother and strummed “Dust in the Wind”…
When Ford made love to Calla, she felt something in him fight. It wasn’t against her ugliness. That matter was settled business, though Calla, in her youth, had held onto the idea that she was a winter-apple sort of…
You fluff the white rice for lunch. Aroma of fermented soybean paste stew wafts in the air. Gazing out the open window, you tense. You slap the rice paddle on the counter and rush outside, charging headfirst across the…
“My memory serves me far too well.” —George Michael 1979 I’ve heard the story a hundred times. Fourteen phone call attempts before my mother snagged my brother’s first babysitter, Sarah, a quick-witted high school sophomore. She showed up from…
Content Warning—disordered eating I At night, I find myself lying in bed near bursting with memory, as if something gone could still rip through me and flower. And yes I let myself get hungrier. It feels impossible to…
Indiana, in our cold one-car garage, motes of dust falling sideways, the sunlight diffused by the snow covering the ground outside, and we watched Apá working the punching bag, his untaped fists flashing with each swing. Behind my brother…
By Beth Kephart • The writer of the memoir in pieces is an assembly artist—a hunter, a gatherer, an arranger, a culler, a keeper. They are not at work on a collection of essays loosely bound by voice, style,…
Esther was sixteen the summer that all the bees in her father’s hives died. Those were the days when she was in love with everything. The curtains in her room, billowing with the morning breeze; the spongy hills leading…
Like many of us who grow up to be writers, I was a kid who mapped the contours of my world with words. Adolescence was a blend of the tactile and conceptual, an era when I spent as much time combing through the internet and poring over books for reflections of my queer, neurodivergent teenage self as I did striving to connect IRL. I sifted through definitions, claiming and discarding labels, desiring the ideal ways to name myself, wondering if any terms would suffice. Outlining the landscape of my ever-shifting interiority seemed impossible but necessary: words were my tools for validating and communicating the particularities of my existence, even with their shortcomings.
In this story, the first draft of which emerged in one burst of writing early in the pandemic, a teenager struggles with the frustration that comes from failing to breach these barriers between the actual and the described, the realities people will reveal about themselves and the deeper truths they won’t (or can’t). She catalogues her world, which comprises her house and the land surrounding it, including her beloved beehives. She thinks of herself as a naturalist, a taxonomist, but that’s a complicated history, a legacy of men like Carl Linnaeus and David Starr Jordan rewriting reality through self-serving designs, charting out false hierarchies of life on Earth and neglecting the liminal spaces that link creatures of infinite complexity. Creatures who, like Esther, can’t be described only one way, and are damaged by attempts to reduce the nuances of their existence.
Esther’s subject of study is sex, a category as broad and unfathomable as the many made-up designations these men forced their subjects to fit—specifically, “the unspeakable boundarylessness of queer sex,” as the writer Amy Gall describes it. “Queer” not only in the sense of who you might be having sex with, but, in the words of bell hooks, “queer as being about the self that is at odds with everything around it and has to invent and create and find a place to speak and to thrive and to live.” Being a queer person means having to map those edges for yourself, and finding fitting language is fraught when aspects of your existence feel inexpressible.
Language can limn and limit our desires. I played with the tension between mind and word in this piece, entwining spare, precise descriptions (often in Esther’s idiosyncratic encyclopedic style) with visceral sensory images to draw taut the threads between the possibilities of language and the qualia of consciousness. The flash-fiction form lends itself to uncategorizable, deceptively straightforward stories. Because flash fiction more closely resembles a miniature painting than a novel in scope, understanding what’s unfolding seems simple. But details transform: the picture reverses. The story is laid out before you, yet some narrative element remains slippery, elusive, a living thing that can’t be pinned to a board and classified. You can turn this tiny world around, catching facets in the light, never seeing quite the same scene each time.
KATHARINE DUCKETT is the award-winning author of Miranda in Milan, the Shakespearean fantasy novella debut that NPR calls “intriguing, adept, inventive, and sexy.” Her short fiction has appeared in various publications and collections, including Some of the Best from Tor.com 2020 and Rebuilding Tomorrow: Anthology of Life After the Apocalypse, which won the 2020 Aurealis Award for Best Anthology. She lives in Beacon, New York, with her wife, and is an advisory board member for the Octavia Project, a Brooklyn nonprofit offering free summer programs in creative writing, art, science, and technology that empowers young women and trans and nonbinary youth to envision bold new futures. Find her on Twitter @kekduckett and Instagram @hottmcawesome.