What You Know by Heather Aronson

When someone yells “Boom!” on a sailboat, you are about to get hit by a bar at the base of the sail, unless you duck. “Hard alee” also means something like “duck,” but to the side. You never remember…
When someone yells “Boom!” on a sailboat, you are about to get hit by a bar at the base of the sail, unless you duck. “Hard alee” also means something like “duck,” but to the side. You never remember…
When we were twelve, we taught ourselves to fly. —John Murillo, from “Renegades of Funk” All of us girls, now women. —T Kira Madden, from “The Feels of Love” That winter, we watched New York Undercover on group phone calls,…
By Gerry Stanek • James Baldwin finds a unique way to interiority in “Sonny’s Blues,” which was first published in 1957. I say unique, because I’m not sure there’s another story like this; a character’s thoughts and perceptions are…
He’ll want the Moana one with zippers like cresting waves and straps that glisten blue plastic glitz. He’ll cry that Michelle Naylor’s mom let her buy that one in purple. You’ve only met Michelle Naylor’s mom once, at family…
We make a ton of money off Christmas in July, because customers have too much hope. It’s not their fault. Me and Rubina feed it to them. We decorate Paradise Pawn with tinsel and lights. We smile and hold…
By Candace Walsh • In Zadie Smith’s short story “Crazy They Call Me,” the author makes the unconventional choice to present Billie Holiday as a second-person-singular narrator. This strikes me as a literary high-wire act, plausibly the result of…
There are funnel cakes. There are deep-fried Kit Kats. There are even deep-fried sticks of butter. Sam’s feet sink into the mud that’s covered with straw because it rained ten inches in forty-eight hours and it’s probably going to…
After Dinner A woman sits at a kitchen table, sipping chamomile tea and reading a book. The dishes have been rinsed, the counters and sink cleared, the dishwasher hums. Outside the window over the sink, the night is…
Once you could sleep. At five a.m. the ravens are a collective of voices, neighbors in the apartment next door. You wake to their arguments or their lovemaking or their overwrought drunken discussions but there is no wall to…
The thing about being the murdered extra is you set the plot in motion. You were a girl good at walking past cameras, background girl, corner-of-the-frame girl. Never-held-a-script girl, went-where-the-director-said girl. You’ll be found in an alley, it’s always…
This fall, I got a new book about Elizabeth Short. Not too many people know that’s her name—she’s better known by the moniker the Hearst newspapers anointed her with: The Black Dahlia. There are dozens of books about her, movies, ripped-from-the-headlines television shows. But of course none of them are about her, really. She’s much more interesting as a murder victim than as Elizabeth, the girl with bad taste in men. More interesting as The Black Dahlia than as Betty, the girl who couch-surfed for months after she stopped being able to pay her rent.
And this story isn’t about Elizabeth Short either. As much as I would like to tell her story.
This story is about a girl who wanted to make it big and didn’t. It’s about a girl who died. It’s about how she isn’t known from her death, how she is lost in it, how she is recreated as something understandable to the masses. It’s about what she has left behind.
It’s about looking for the lost and never knowing if you have found them.
This story is from my Murdered Ladies series (I wish I had come up with a better name, but it is what it is: stories about women [or girls] who have been murdered). Every story is looking for the lost girl from the title: the Extra, the Babysitter, the Wife, the Lover, the Teacher. Every story is their story. Every story is mine.
I am looking for the lost in these stories.
I don’t know if I will ever find them.
CATHY ULRICH knows a recipe for a drink called a Black Dahlia: it’s got vodka, creme de cassis, and raspberry liqueur in it. Her work has been published in various journals, including Passages North, Black Warrior Review, and Longleaf Review.